Moving on...I'm done!
I searched for words but they did not come
I hoped for miracles as I saw it come undone
I begged forgiveness in an attempt to balance the pain
I finally realized - from this there was nothing to gain
I rolled up my sleeves and returned to the task...
There's work to be done and what's past is past...
what's past is past...sometimes I have to actually say words like that to put the past back where it belongs, move forward. Recognize, gather in the gratitude of those who appreciate the bits I can offer to help them move forward themselves...and walk away from any who would push those buttons, say those words to attempt to make sure I knew that , in their eyes, it isn't quite enough, not quite good enough, knowing me well enough to know it would cause pain. It's high school again....hurtful comments, manipulation and lies behind the scenes....making sure I can't have even a full day of thinking about a job well done, helping out those with a message and a song to deliver it so gracefully...not my talent, but I can use mine to move them along a bit.
It's sad that at this age, there are those who gain their own self-esteem at the pain of others...bullies to this day. Because that's what bullies do...it's not new.
Forty five years ago, I was young, that was my excuse...high school lessons. Now, no excuses, at some point I have to learn who to trust and who to shine on....but the point is to still trust, not let bullies move trust out of my life again.
I'm blessed with wonderful people in my life, with all types of talents and skills, love for the sharing and some with music to put it out there....we're all human, we all have flaws, we all move forward at our own pace...time to get back to it.
I rolled up my sleeves and returned to the task...
There's work to be done and what's past is past.
I hoped for miracles as I saw it come undone
I begged forgiveness in an attempt to balance the pain
I finally realized - from this there was nothing to gain
I rolled up my sleeves and returned to the task...
There's work to be done and what's past is past...
what's past is past...sometimes I have to actually say words like that to put the past back where it belongs, move forward. Recognize, gather in the gratitude of those who appreciate the bits I can offer to help them move forward themselves...and walk away from any who would push those buttons, say those words to attempt to make sure I knew that , in their eyes, it isn't quite enough, not quite good enough, knowing me well enough to know it would cause pain. It's high school again....hurtful comments, manipulation and lies behind the scenes....making sure I can't have even a full day of thinking about a job well done, helping out those with a message and a song to deliver it so gracefully...not my talent, but I can use mine to move them along a bit.
It's sad that at this age, there are those who gain their own self-esteem at the pain of others...bullies to this day. Because that's what bullies do...it's not new.
Forty five years ago, I was young, that was my excuse...high school lessons. Now, no excuses, at some point I have to learn who to trust and who to shine on....but the point is to still trust, not let bullies move trust out of my life again.
I'm blessed with wonderful people in my life, with all types of talents and skills, love for the sharing and some with music to put it out there....we're all human, we all have flaws, we all move forward at our own pace...time to get back to it.
I rolled up my sleeves and returned to the task...
There's work to be done and what's past is past.
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